The scan seems to hold your fate. Did the tumor shrink? Has it returned? Are lymph nodes lighting up? Will you need another round of chemo? Did the surgery work? It can be maddening. It’s not uncommon for people with cancer to develop PTSD because of this anxiety. I can absolutely see why.
I am still trying to figure out what it means to be a wife. What does it look like? What does it feel like? How can I serve this marriage, and how can this marriage serve me? I had less than two months before the term “newlywed wife” turned into “chief caregiver”.
Our newlywed story looks a little different from most. If you made your way to this blog, it's possible yours does too. Different is not bad. Different can be powerful, strengthening, binding, and illuminating (albeit frustrating, confusing, and often, tough).