I'm often asked how we stay positive through the difficult days. This question always takes me back to a specific moment where I found my self sobbing in a ball on our bathroom floor. Not quite the image of optimism or strength, but it's where it started.
In the wake of the overwhelming support and encouragement we have received this week after HeartThreads Docs shared our story on Facebook, I have been pulled into reflection on the year we have had. Some days it's easy to wake up and feel like it never happened. Some mornings the unseen marks on our minds and hearts show up a little deeper. Sometimes I feel like I've fully processed the fears and stresses we experienced, but most times I feel like I haven't even begin to see the impact that has been made.
Tomorrow is the six month anniversary of Tommy's diagnosis. I won't share the statistics connected to this feat because they make me queasy, but just know, this is a HUGE milestone for esophageal cancer. We've been fighting for six months, and most days now it feels like we've beat it. He can eat normally, is working like crazy, and even performed in an Off-Broadway show this past weekend (it's unreal I know, he's a superstar).
I'm the kind of person who loves making lists. I love the feeling of completing a task, and checking it off. It's finished. I don't have to think about it again. I become very one track minded in my quest to complete a goal. I do not like to rest until a project is finished in every way.